So how is everyone else’s 2012 going so far?
Mine has been blessed, perhaps a few aggravations here and there, a couple set backs, but nothing to dive into the darkness and dwell about. Just have to find alternate ways of getting a few things done ’round here, is all.
But that’s life! Full of obstacles and challenges, unexpected pitfalls and blessings. Gotta love it! Or at least try your best to keep loving it and having Faith throughout it.
My wife has been out of town since Thursday, off to celebrate her son’s graduation from Navy boot camp. Words lack the actually expression of pride from his accomplishments as a young man of God.
I wanted to go but finances and household management wouldn’t allow for me to join. Instead, I stayed home with our daughter so she wouldn’t miss any school. I wasn’t really looking forward to this time spent without Babe, we miss each other terribly when we’re apart from one another, but I had to suck it up anyway. To tell you the truth, I was more worried about having to spend five days alone with our daughter than anything. As I’ve said in the past, she can be the cause of some grief around here, between her mother and I, and just with me. It’s not that we don’t get along because we do. When she is alone with either her mother or I, she doesn’t give much grief at all and makes the time seem well spent, most of the time. The problem is, she needs to find a way to be able to handle herself in the same manner when it’s all three of us, instead of pitting her mother and I against each other, and furthermore, show the same respect for us both while we’re together that she does when we’re apart. Conversely, we need to be able to open up to spending more time with her individually when we’re all together, perhaps “date days,” so that maybe she doesn’t feel left out. Maybe, and I’m praying for this, that between both theories, we can all live together in a more peaceful, less tense, less aggravated, and less saddened environment.
Knowing our daughter the way I do, I would say that the task would be like trying to move a mountain. Well, we can’t do that, we just don’t have the strength, even all three of us combined. However, it’s not so much about moving the obstacles and challenges out of our path, as it is trekking through them, actually making that climb instead of just moving the mountain.
So that’s what we did! In addition to a couple other fun things my daughter and I did in her mom’s absence, we climbed a mountain. No, it wasn’t a big mountain, and it wasn’t a scary terrain, but it was the biggest and steepest rocky hill I’ve ever attempted to climb, not to mention the fact that I wasn’t even going to do it in the first place. But our plans for Saturday derailed because of a big event going on in the city, so instead of heading back home to do hours worth of nothing, she talked me into climbing “A” Mountain. I was worried about doing it because I’ve been battling a cold with a nasty cough for a couple weeks, I didn’t have my inhaler, I was wearing my black converse, which are not good for hiking, and my attitude toward the climb, and how much effort it was going to be, was shying me away.
Faith! Just climb the mountain and don’t worry about what “might” happen. Like my mother-in-law said the other day, “if” is a big burden for a little word, and that would have been a lot of extra weight for me to carry up those trails if I hadn’t just left “if” at the bottom of the hill and just started walking.
It was steep, I was out of breath, my legs were burning, my shoulder was hurting (chronic situation but gets worse with more movement), but it didn’t take long before I looked back and we were halfway up. Yes, I would have liked to have my inhaler, but I decided that I would make it without it, because this was a challenge, it was fun, and it was going to be worth it…that’s what my daughter said whilst walking, anyway.
We made it to the top and it was beautiful. We rested on some rocks for a while, talked to a couple people, took some pictures, and just hung out. “I feel closer to God up here,” she said. Whether she said that to please me because she knows the pride I carry in being a follower of Christ, or if she said it because that’s how she truly felt, then she was right in what she said at the bottom of the hill. It was totally worth it.
This morning in church, we continued our study on The Book of John and the prayer that Jesus prayed in front of those chosen eleven, from whom the gospel has spread generations later to you and me. I took notes like I usually do but, honestly, I don’t really have much to say about the sermon, although it was great. The best part of service was, at the very end, watching my daughter, on her own accord, go up to the front to pray with someone. I’m not sure what it was about…I didn’t go with her. I thought that if this was her making another step toward a relationship with Jesus, then there was no room for me to be there in that moment with her. If she wants to share, she will. And furthermore, her mother and I are always here to help with her conflicts in faith, or at least try. But we are only capable of so much. Her relationship is hers and Gods, and there is nothing anyone can do to lean it one way or the other, regardless of our hopes.
The only thing we can do is do our best to live in The Word, as it has all been put in writing for us what it is that Jesus, His Love, and His covenant is. It’s a simple, yet, tough guide to follow and be diligent with. However, our Love for Jesus should be the easiest way to guide us through life, as it is simply to Love.
I know, there are many other “rules” in The Bible, and trust me, I have a hard time grasping some of them too. In 2012 it’s just kind of hard to wrap your mind around some of the teachings, but I’m doing my best and I pray to help me not fail…or at least fail too badly. And when I start to stumble, as we all do, we just need to remember that The Word is there to help us, encourage us, guide us, and teach us. It will never change, it will never waiver, it will never lessen. Our job is to live within The Word while living in this world, whilst not being part of it…with Jesus, we are so much more than what this world is and what it has to offer.
Know it, live it, love it, Love Him and Love it forward…and we’ll all get where we want to go.
~Dear Lord, thank you for your many blessings this week, especially for the safe travels of our loved ones and for the time well spent with our loved ones. Please help us to continue to shine in the light of your Love so that we may count ourselves among the multitude of those that may enter your Holy Kingdom. Please forgive me my sins, and help me work on correcting them, especially my dirty mouth, so that nobody may ever condemn me in my speech. Lord, I pray that my Love shines as bright as yours. In your Holy and Precious name, I pray. Amen~